(i added sum colors hopefully it wudnt be so boring Hahahaha...Enjoy)
"God has been extreamly faithful this whole week. I have gone tru one of the worst situations in my life[so far] :). and i thought i have had the worst. So personally for me... it wasnt the kinda physical unbearable pain... it was emotional which was one of the worst kinds of stuff. Physical pain or hurts can be easily healed with time and with help of Drs. but emotional?...in normal circumstances... i wud've gone insane. BUt i knew i nv needed the therapist... i needed Jesus.
It started when everything seemed spiraling outta control nothing seemed to be happening xcept goin bad..so i kept calling out to Him...and deep dwn i knew He was there. But i was so down in my spirit and before i knew it i was consumed by pain...hurts. etc [any form of negative emotions. U name it.... i went tru n no i aint kidding] i begin to question God... i begin to doubt His purpose in me...all form of doubts came in... i knew vry well.. He was there all along but i chose to belive the situation i was in.which was dwn rite silly...the kinda thing where only be felt and seen by the human eye and emotions... and there was when the lies of the Devil started whispering in my ear... telling me how God actually has left me... there was something wrong with me thats why nothing is happening...it was cuz of my past sins... blahblahblah... and soon his lies begin to make sense for that moment at least.
i was at the brink of givingup everything. there's when there's this sumthing in me askin me...' u've come dis far... you sure u gonna give everything up?...God is so real in your life and you know it. You have felt Him in so many occasions... He never will quit on you...you gonna quit on Him?...' So i told God.. ' i cant go on like this.i tried everything and i duno how much can i still take..all i want is more of You in my life. to have this personal encounter just like every1 else... thats just my main purpose..why is it...that nothing seems to go right then?...everything seems to just head no where but down.. Pls. i dun mean to condamn myslf and all... Pls do something..cuz i dun think i can hold on much longer...and i dun wanna give up...pls. i need ur strength...and not my will but Your will be done Oh Lord... so i give up everything..rite now... You take controll..do as You please... cuz i noe. You know the plans You have for me. Not to harm me but to gimme a purpose and a hope.to prosper me but not to harm me...'
so there was it. i ended my prayer...dried my tears and went back doing my normal stuff...watching tv...hvn my snacks. There was when i recieved this call from a Gab. Reading this amazing paragraph taken from Shyju Mathew's Blog (only the main points i shall post)... Quote:
'You’ve been praying and fasting, seeking God but nothing dramatic has been happening. This at times is taking your spirit low! This is making you wonder if God is even listening. This is depressing you, making you even quit praying! But the Lord is pushing me to write this just for you! God wants you to know that your prayer is been heard and that even though you don’t see anything on the outside, things are happening within your spirit....Let no devil bring defeat and drop doubts into your spirit. Arise now from your hurt and pain, go back on your knees, under the shadow of the wings of your Creator and He will honor you in due time...'
it was like i cud feel God telling me this...and i was trembling and givin my all to fight back my tears...cuz i was overwhelmed...and now i feel extreamly energized....and refreshed..and i thank God for His everlasting faithfulness and love... so i wud like to encourage every1...to have this principle in your lives... Not my will but Your will Father.. Just like how Jesus always prayed..and always..have faith in knowing...No way God will ever leave us... :) "
Shaz
"God has been extreamly faithful this whole week. I have gone tru one of the worst situations in my life[so far] :). and i thought i have had the worst. So personally for me... it wasnt the kinda physical unbearable pain... it was emotional which was one of the worst kinds of stuff. Physical pain or hurts can be easily healed with time and with help of Drs. but emotional?...in normal circumstances... i wud've gone insane. BUt i knew i nv needed the therapist... i needed Jesus.
It started when everything seemed spiraling outta control nothing seemed to be happening xcept goin bad..so i kept calling out to Him...and deep dwn i knew He was there. But i was so down in my spirit and before i knew it i was consumed by pain...hurts. etc [any form of negative emotions. U name it.... i went tru n no i aint kidding] i begin to question God... i begin to doubt His purpose in me...all form of doubts came in... i knew vry well.. He was there all along but i chose to belive the situation i was in.which was dwn rite silly...the kinda thing where only be felt and seen by the human eye and emotions... and there was when the lies of the Devil started whispering in my ear... telling me how God actually has left me... there was something wrong with me thats why nothing is happening...it was cuz of my past sins... blahblahblah... and soon his lies begin to make sense for that moment at least.
i was at the brink of givingup everything. there's when there's this sumthing in me askin me...' u've come dis far... you sure u gonna give everything up?...God is so real in your life and you know it. You have felt Him in so many occasions... He never will quit on you...you gonna quit on Him?...' So i told God.. ' i cant go on like this.i tried everything and i duno how much can i still take..all i want is more of You in my life. to have this personal encounter just like every1 else... thats just my main purpose..why is it...that nothing seems to go right then?...everything seems to just head no where but down.. Pls. i dun mean to condamn myslf and all... Pls do something..cuz i dun think i can hold on much longer...and i dun wanna give up...pls. i need ur strength...and not my will but Your will be done Oh Lord... so i give up everything..rite now... You take controll..do as You please... cuz i noe. You know the plans You have for me. Not to harm me but to gimme a purpose and a hope.to prosper me but not to harm me...'
so there was it. i ended my prayer...dried my tears and went back doing my normal stuff...watching tv...hvn my snacks. There was when i recieved this call from a Gab. Reading this amazing paragraph taken from Shyju Mathew's Blog (only the main points i shall post)... Quote:
'You’ve been praying and fasting, seeking God but nothing dramatic has been happening. This at times is taking your spirit low! This is making you wonder if God is even listening. This is depressing you, making you even quit praying! But the Lord is pushing me to write this just for you! God wants you to know that your prayer is been heard and that even though you don’t see anything on the outside, things are happening within your spirit....Let no devil bring defeat and drop doubts into your spirit. Arise now from your hurt and pain, go back on your knees, under the shadow of the wings of your Creator and He will honor you in due time...'
it was like i cud feel God telling me this...and i was trembling and givin my all to fight back my tears...cuz i was overwhelmed...and now i feel extreamly energized....and refreshed..and i thank God for His everlasting faithfulness and love... so i wud like to encourage every1...to have this principle in your lives... Not my will but Your will Father.. Just like how Jesus always prayed..and always..have faith in knowing...No way God will ever leave us... :) "
Shaz
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